too much stuff

i just finished mugging for econs. so i has freedom to do whatever right now.

i'm lying. i'm not free from work yet.

i have a lot of things bugging me in the head, so pardon me if i shoot anyone. i'm really really sorry.

first of all: criticism.

would you call something overall lousy if someone put all his effort on it, but still failed to make something impressive?

would you call something awesome if he did not put his heart and soul in it, and did it insincerely, but yielded good results?

to make things clearer: if a soccer team was the slacker-type with the team members overly complacent, if they won, would they deserve more praise than the team which works hard, but still hit rock bottom?

criticism cannot be classified as immoral or moral, i'll give that person that. but a judge has a right to criticize as he knows how it's supposed to be done, as he has experience in this kind of stuff. i guess asking an inexperienced person to judge something is pretty much questionable.

another note: friends

how would you feel if you always are subtly outcasted just cause...?

i guess it's pretty much the language barrier for me. i am trying hard to learn chinesisch from my bro.

but this happens all the time. i guess i'll just try to tolerate it.

3rd thing: finances

i am trying hard to budget my allowance for the whole month. please don't ruin it by your extravagant spending and stuff. although spending it on study notes is fine.

ze fourth: my current attitude problem

ever since this year, i tried to change my image from introvert to extrovert.

i think it worked too well, i became too sarcastic.

ah well.

i'm sorry to those i have offended by my acts of narcissism and making fun of you.

just one last thing: cultural invasion

is japan and korea really trying to invade the world with their culture? (though i'm pretty sure korea's just trying to mimic japan, save for the koreanovelas, cause that was totally korea's)

is america too, in a way, influencing what we think?

i've gotta admit though:

>i like japanese anime (i find korean manga/anime a teensy bit irksome, the eyes are drawn huger than in japanese ones. srsly)

>i like csi, flashforward, and house, all of which were produced in usa.

>almost everyone has an iphone now (i'm not gonna buy one though, i'm not bothered until everyone really has one)

in conclusion: i'm an idiot.

-m