website completion status: still down at 05.0%. how lazy am i?
...for those who think i'm emo-ing again, well, probably i am. but usually it's on a temporary basis...it goes on and off without me even knowing it. *moves off to a dark corner*
...so i've heard that jo and hamza's relationship has been going well, even if joanna told me one time last year after she broke up with mich (it was more like 5 months after that incident) that she didn't wanna be associated with any boy whosoever...seems like times have changed. breaking resolutions are our trend already. how come i didn't hear of it?
...i must be out of my mind, mustn't i?
okay, enough of this, it's only making my day worse.
>>THE NOT SO DISTANT PAST<<
*insert omitted text here*monday: meh. started on enzymes, which was so boring. took a nap at chem class without mrs koh noticing. how shameful, especially for someone who is a chem rep. perhaps i need to work on my attitude. and get some more sleep, 'coz i really need it...
tuesday: well, i was really feeling kinda sick that day...but i didn't care. i also was lucky enough to catch an early bus. ^^ the rest that happened on this day was nothing of importance, except amanda got sabotaged by mrs koh. l.o.l.s...also got to see esther in choir. long time no see, esther ^^...after choir there was this meeting-thingy for choir leaders. i didn't want to stand there in envy so i walked off. i don't wanna care anymore.
wednesday: well...found out almost everyone i knew got hooked, except for a few (which includes yours truly)...i mean, seriously...you might think it's silly of me to refuse to have a bf, but, as i always say, it ain't my time yet. although i'm not patient on a lot of things, i can be quite patient on this matter. i don't like rushing, especially for exams. it ain't worth it.
tuesday: well, i was really feeling kinda sick that day...but i didn't care. i also was lucky enough to catch an early bus. ^^ the rest that happened on this day was nothing of importance, except amanda got sabotaged by mrs koh. l.o.l.s...also got to see esther in choir. long time no see, esther ^^...after choir there was this meeting-thingy for choir leaders. i didn't want to stand there in envy so i walked off. i don't wanna care anymore.
wednesday: well...found out almost everyone i knew got hooked, except for a few (which includes yours truly)...i mean, seriously...you might think it's silly of me to refuse to have a bf, but, as i always say, it ain't my time yet. although i'm not patient on a lot of things, i can be quite patient on this matter. i don't like rushing, especially for exams. it ain't worth it.
>>THE PRESENT TENSE<<
"darn. how could i be so dumb?"
yups. my head is really deteriorating at a fast rate.
my maths (a and e) are complete failures. my bio was also quite a disappointment, and my chem is also pretty much disheartening. for sure i'm gonna get beaten up in physics.
...and that's how i learnt that looks can indeed be deceiving in a hard way.
how now, brown cow?
...i don't think i can even make an a1.
it's my arrogance that made me like this. i shouldn't have been too overconfident.
...and it's all gonna change, hopefully.
yups. my head is really deteriorating at a fast rate.
my maths (a and e) are complete failures. my bio was also quite a disappointment, and my chem is also pretty much disheartening. for sure i'm gonna get beaten up in physics.
...and that's how i learnt that looks can indeed be deceiving in a hard way.
how now, brown cow?
...i don't think i can even make an a1.
it's my arrogance that made me like this. i shouldn't have been too overconfident.
...and it's all gonna change, hopefully.
>>FUTURE PROJECTS<<
...meh. not sure.
first of all, i'm gonna cut the slack like what i'm doing right now and hit the books. also, i'll try to get as much sleep as possible. i already look like a panda, and it could only get worse.
...also, i'm gonna try to finish the class site a.s.a.p. ...i'm pretty serious about it although it seems like no one ever takes me seriously. weird? naaaaaah.
...also, i'll try to convince myself to be more decisive, especially when i'm thinking of running for philippine president. *dang. did i just say that? lol, i did.* although it's only a thought, no one can be so sure about the future.
first of all, i'm gonna cut the slack like what i'm doing right now and hit the books. also, i'll try to get as much sleep as possible. i already look like a panda, and it could only get worse.
...also, i'm gonna try to finish the class site a.s.a.p. ...i'm pretty serious about it although it seems like no one ever takes me seriously. weird? naaaaaah.
...also, i'll try to convince myself to be more decisive, especially when i'm thinking of running for philippine president. *dang. did i just say that? lol, i did.* although it's only a thought, no one can be so sure about the future.
>>...THE LAST WORDS...<<
...before i bid you people adieu, i would like to say the following:
>that you no need to worry if i get hurt, 'coz i've let go anyway...so you can just go on with the relationship, 'coz i've let go of it by posting this. ^^
>that you can talk to the hand 'coz i just want to hear silence, thank you very much.
>that you can go move into the landfill, don't mind me, i'm just a bystander.
>...that i need to be alone when i'm emo-ing, so, please stay away by a 30-mile radius, or at least be far away as possible. i don't wanna rant, 'coz i know you won't like it either.
>that i absolutely don't mind being outcasted anymore. haven't i told that a thousand times? although it kinda hurts. v.v
>that i really wanna get out of this place (bigger scale please. i like my house, you know.). this place sucks.
..and now i must bid you guys a fond farewell. happy valentines day!
see ya,
mariel
(to readers: sorry for dumping this huge load of dump on you. i really need someone to confide to, an my diary's full. i need a new one...and i don't mean that i seek attention. i try not to. and the last words? try to guess if i'm referring to you. you might never know. *winks*)
>that you no need to worry if i get hurt, 'coz i've let go anyway...so you can just go on with the relationship, 'coz i've let go of it by posting this. ^^
>that you can talk to the hand 'coz i just want to hear silence, thank you very much.
>that you can go move into the landfill, don't mind me, i'm just a bystander.
>...that i need to be alone when i'm emo-ing, so, please stay away by a 30-mile radius, or at least be far away as possible. i don't wanna rant, 'coz i know you won't like it either.
>that i absolutely don't mind being outcasted anymore. haven't i told that a thousand times? although it kinda hurts. v.v
>that i really wanna get out of this place (bigger scale please. i like my house, you know.). this place sucks.
..and now i must bid you guys a fond farewell. happy valentines day!
see ya,
mariel
(to readers: sorry for dumping this huge load of dump on you. i really need someone to confide to, an my diary's full. i need a new one...and i don't mean that i seek attention. i try not to. and the last words? try to guess if i'm referring to you. you might never know. *winks*)
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