eat my dust

i miss doing this. seriously.

which is why i'm here now.

lolz.

bai now.

general apology.

while it may seem like i'm free now, i'm not. i'm sacrificing my project work time just to blog this...

*sighs* here we go.

i may seem aloof more often now that i'm here. that isn't the case. i may miss your call or won't reply to your sms. I'M SORRY. i just don't have enough time like i used to. i have loads of tutorials to do, and seriously, there's a test almost everyday, and since i'm in the council now, i just have more things to worry about. but that doesn't mean i'm abandoning my old friends or anything like it; i just really have to get adjusted to this kind of life.

i might also seem to be free 'coz i'm sometimes online on facebook, but that's something else entirely. i just leave my facebook online sometimes. :P

i'm also sorry since i didn't go to a single class outing. i'll try to sometime, but i don't expect that to come to reality soon, with me thinking "suicidal" because of all the workload i'm having (NO, not that suicidal...it's more like "i wanna go home sleep, fail if fail, luhs" kind of thing).

i really have lots of things in my mind, like meeting expectations, schoolwork, council stuff, and even church and home stuff. and i'm also thinking of getting a job sometime...but that's purely theoretical...or something like it. but you guys will still keep a place in my head. i don't forget those kind of stuff.

i wonder what you guys think of me now...being in jc and stuff. i guess you guys might be thinking how smart i am, and how much of a jerk i am for not coming to the outing. as i said, i haven't got the hang of balancing things yet...and i haven't gave on trying. but i guess i can understand if you guys feel that way.

you wanna know what i think?

forgive me for my ignorance, but i guess you guys have it better than me. you guys just had a long vacation, and so far your worries just have been emotional and a bit of financial...but i guess in the end we all will face similar stress...albeit slightly different.

i'm cutting of this post...and return sometime soon...probably next year. hum.

- :D

dimwitzzz

hallos.

while i am still being flooded by tutorials, i guess i'll be blogging this time.

so anyways, tried my hand at flash, with my bro's guidance of course.

and you know what? it ended up pretty awesome. besides the fact that it went too fast, but that's cause i had to squeeze it in in 30 sec.

so anyways. my class in jc is ok, but it will never be the same as good old 4e1. haha. i still am random...but now i keep it in a minimum level. and i am still a bit evil. hahahaha :P

my current clique is like...ok luhs. two of them are like mugger types, but i don't mind. it's better that way, or i'll be sending myself to doom again. the other two are like random also...hahaha :D

yeah, i know my sec sch clique was not the mugger type, but it's better that way. the other clique of girls are like....uhm, damn hyper like you cannot stand...or something like it. i wouldn't use the other word that starts with b and ends with o. hahaha :P

i really miss my sec schl clique. there's no one i can pick on and "compete" (michael) or anyone i can be random with (xy) or pick on the whole green tea thing (js) or that person to wait at the bus stop and then talk about wondergirls (amanda).

on an unrelated note, yes, i finally got my wish that i can walk to school. awesome, eh? too bad i can't go for lunch at home. :P

i guess i have changed this year. i am not that timid-type anymore, since i guess i learned that in sec schl...and i has a fringe and is wearing shorter skirt and short socks. ok, the last line doesn't really mean anything. honest.

so, anyone wanna disturb the school with me?

hmm?

i haven't posted in days. ahahaha. but neither is anyone else, but heck.

i'm at meridian jc. ain't it awesome?

i'm flooded with tutorials right now, and i still has a poster to design.

i'll post another time, k?

-baka.

bored

one word:

Halp.

:)

Hallo guys.

It's been 2(?) days since the release of o-level results.

How was my o-level results you might ask?

It's a mixed bag.

I am happy I got in the top 3 in my stream...I am happy that I got 11 for L1R5...and I am happy it was mostly A's...

But I am disappointed that I only got one A1 (When will you be satisfied Lyzz?)

I've been going around JCs...and this wwas how it all fared:

9 Jan (Temasek JC)
It was fun...and I had a taste on General Paper and Econs. However, I couldn't help but feel out of place...most who came came from them top schools and a couple of foreigners...I can't help but think "What the crap is a student from a neighbourhood school like me doing here?"

Oh well. :D I might not be able to get in there...their cut-off was 6. :(

12 Jan (National JC)
What the pfargtl.

I didn't realise how far away NJC was from my house.
It was a 1 hour bus ride from my house, not counting waiting time for buses to arrive and traffic jams and stuff.
I know NJC is pretty much an elite school, so I expected as much when most of the people there came from some high class school...
...I didn't expect that it would be surrounded by other top schools (mostly primary schools...I don't really recall)

Once again, I am so out of place.

13 Jan, today (St Andrew's, Anderson, Meridian)
Supposedly I was going to head off first to Anderson, then SAJC, but since SAJC's open house starts earlier, I went there first instead.

I think I would like it studying in SAJC.
Besides the fact its location is sorta near Pasir Ris, I think school life there is more upbeat (and probably less boring)...plus the nice-looking uniform. Hahaha.
...and besides. I'd most likely be posted there. lol.

Anderson's sorta OK too...but it has a high cut-off point, and the facilities are pretty old.

I haven't gone to MJC yet. I still have to wait for someone to watch over the house...but I think I'd like it there too. Especially the fact that it's just a walk from my house. Nyahahaha.

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I'll be getting my own lappy soon.

(::D

whu-, get that thing outta my face.

so, o-lvl results come out on the 11th?

then my informer was damn accurate (thanks, dude!). hahahaha :D

hmmm. i miss chicken rice balls.

i really have not much to say today...it wasn't like before when i blog i have lots of things to say...it feels weird blogging now...

at the moment i'm very busy, considering the fact that the church is literally just across the street from my house and i have no excuse to exclude myself for warden duty, and it has busy for the past few days...church's dedication is coming up...raaaaah.

also, i'm trying to go to as much jc/poly open houses as i can...just to get out of the house. hahaha :D

as for my story, i forgot where i saved the file. lol.

i wonder how much has changed?

it seems like everyone seems so far away...or am i merely isolating myself?

or is it because i miss everyone?

ok, i'll admit it.

I MISS EVERYONE IN 4E1.

I miss how messy the back of our classroom is, and that every tuesday i have sweep the classroom (hahaha).
I miss my friends, who always have to put up with my randomness...and sometimes my mood swings...and how irritating i am sometimes. :P
I miss my table. (I wonder who got my note on my table? :D)

Anyone remember that time when people stuffed their books and used green tea bottles in that cabinet in our classroom? I almost wanted to stuff my stuff...

Also, anyone remember that time we found a box of (expired) chips outside 7-11? good thing no one had stomach problems afterwards.... :D

I seriously miss school.

I know this isn't typical of me to be touchy-feely and stuff. (I need hug :P)

bah, i'm gonna go back to sleep (so anti-climatic.)