dun have anything to say.
just want to make sure the blog ain't cobwebbed.
toodles and see ya,
mariel :P
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Monday, March 10, 2008
of school, weird stuff and ranting.
i won't go into the old system again.
meh. this past few weeks has been rainy. i like the rain, but i don't like when it rains on the holidays and if i have guests on those days.
and i positively don't like going back to school on the holidays...and holiday homework.
who suggested going back to school on holidays and doing holiday homework?
you people are weird.
i don't have much to rant about though.
last saturday i went for the nus geography challenge with ms choo, a sec 2 girl named hannah (amanda, you know her?), a sec 2 guy named mervin, and 2 sec 4 girls whose names i couldn't remember. man, even if we wouldn't get in the top 30, we were one heck of a team. i mean, i had fun, although i was quite reluctant.
...but the questions were pure geography material. dang it...except for the second part of the prelims. it was when it started to get fun. ^^
...i didn't go for choir practice. why?
> 'coz i don't like the idea of going back to school on holidays. i am against the whole idea.
> i'm busy entertaining guests, who happens to be my relatives. can't i have quality time with my relatives? i know this isn't a valid reason for you choir leaders and teacher in charge, but, i think my family comes first before anything else 'coz i wouldn't be in school without them, wouldn't i? *rhetorical question*
> like i said, i'm a family-oriented person. i want to spend time with them while i can, and while they're still alive, 'coz i can't spend time with them when they're dead *touches wood*. yeah, i wouldn't much use to a dead person, wouldn't i? *another rhetorical question*
ok. so i didn't come to lenten vigil too. i wasn't able to come 'coz i wasn't feeling well, i was in jurong...and i didn't take an afternoon nap.
...why was i in jurong?...i was supposed to take something there, i can't recall what was it, and well, it so happens that...i forgot what happens next, i have a bad sense of memory...
ok. now to do what i was here for.
i'm gonna do what xin ying did, 'coz i can't keep in my feelings any longer.
...and i have to admit, i'm slightly emo xD (it doesn't show?...this proves i'm good at faking that i'm not. xP)
joanna: ....*sigh* do you really wanna know? if you don't want to get hurt, close this window.
i've got to admit.you can be quite annoying sometimes, i just don't dare say it. i don't mean to backstab and such, though...i'm still jealous that you were able to change to another school, and i'm quite annoyed about the reason why you changed school...but i don't mean to be selfish and stuff...which is probably the reason i let it go. i don't call much anymore, and sometimes when you call me, you always hear me like i'm in a hurry. times have changed, i don't have much time anymore, which leads my life into an imminent disaster. x.x
...and besides, i've learned the the school's reputation is nothing without its students. so, i'm trying to clear up the school's name on academics: by topping the school's o-levels with a whooping score...a score high enough to let me enter victoria junior college. i know it's impossible, but hey, flying was thought impossible until airplanes were introduced. ^^
...yeah, but it still something too much. :P
...but, this doesn't mean that i hate you. i still like you, 'coz you're still someone i can relate to...and you're someone that is too good to lose. may your relationship with hamza won't be a flop. ^^
amanda:...a lot has changed from the past three years, no?...i remember you saying that you are straight-forward person, so i'm gonna be straight-forward to you too.
you used to be that person who i can hang out with. i used to think of you as very cool and stuff, 'coz, well, i don't remember. i've always thought of you as a good leader before, but, as i've said, things have changed.
...you became more childish, no offense...it's as if you've grown backwards or something. you want things done your way, like that chemistry test mrs koh gave us recently, remember? i remember you saying that if you fail the test, you're gonna blame it on mrs koh. i know you were joking on that part, but what if people take it for granted? i say if the teacher is lousy, i'd do my own work instead, or you could go for tuition. ain't that a simple solution? you can't blame a teacher for teaching that way, 'coz that's her technique. if you don't like it, you could tell her about what you don't like about the way she/he teaches. it won't be solved unless someone does something, right?
...you have also become more selfish, and more of a spoiled brat. yes, you've told me last year that you are quite spoiled, and i told you that you weren't like that. maybe i was wrong. maybe i haven't seen your real side yet.
...you used to be...well...quite approachable. you used to be someone i could talk to...you used to be someone who goes in the same bus as me and talk about a lot of stuff. maybe i was too boring for you, i wouldn't mind...maybe i was too arrogant and cynical, or maybe i still am, i'm trying to improve on it...and you used to say vulgarities not so often. now it seems like vulgarities are part of your vocabulary, which is not a good image for a rite-awardee like you. can you please cut down on them? but this is merely a suggestion, i'm not forcing you to do anything, kapeesh?
...and ever since you went really serious about the whole "les" thing, you went really crazy, as in annoying-type crazy...you became even more sick-minded. you go emo when trina ignores you. i want the old amanda back, but i can't force people to do my bidding, can i?
(btw, i am being outcasted, and you don't need to apologize. it's too late, and i'm outcasting myself from the whole gang. i know the clique is falling apart, and, well, i think it's too late to fix it, not that i'm being a pessimist)
michael: i know you like corrinne (or however you spell it)...i don't like her that much, but don't let my thoughts get in the way of your feelings. if you really like her, then fine, as long as you're happy. if others don't like you being together, then heck care what they think. what matters most is what you feel...but, please do not forget your friends, 'coz corrinne isn't the only person in the world. and if she rejects you, don't mope around and go emo. respect her decision. she isn't the only girl in the world. probably now ain't the time for you to have a girlfriend, so don't rush. and besides, there are more girls in the world that you haven't met, and you can't be sure corrinne's the one for you...but that doesn't mean that you go date every single girl on the planet, 'coz that is extremely weird.
...btw, i like your decision to turn over a new leaf. i wanted to turn over a new leaf too, but my own self kept stopping me from doing so. but i am trying, though. ^^
xin ying: ...yes i did say things do change, and i'm not the only one seeing the changes.
...yes, you did become a bit weird, but not weird to the point of being crazy...you weren't so emo as before, and i like it. ^^
amanda did say once the you don't "click" anymore, that you were being annoying. but i don't think that you are annoying...seriously. i am not being biased, 'coz that would mean that i am lying, which i don't plan to do right now.
...a lot of things did change for the past three years that i have been here.
...to the whole lot that has been reading this: i have noticed that i've changed a lot too. i've made new friends this year, i have seen things from a different perspective, a lot has seiously changed. but that doesn't mean i like everything that has changed from my past personality. it seems like i have been more arrogant (i've said it before and i'll say it again)...i have been trying to humble myself. it's just me who's been stubborn.
...well.. i can't think of anything else to say. i'm not hiding any more stuff in the head.
man, ranting stuff is fun ^^
see ya,
mariel ^^
meh. this past few weeks has been rainy. i like the rain, but i don't like when it rains on the holidays and if i have guests on those days.
and i positively don't like going back to school on the holidays...and holiday homework.
who suggested going back to school on holidays and doing holiday homework?
you people are weird.
i don't have much to rant about though.
last saturday i went for the nus geography challenge with ms choo, a sec 2 girl named hannah (amanda, you know her?), a sec 2 guy named mervin, and 2 sec 4 girls whose names i couldn't remember. man, even if we wouldn't get in the top 30, we were one heck of a team. i mean, i had fun, although i was quite reluctant.
...but the questions were pure geography material. dang it...except for the second part of the prelims. it was when it started to get fun. ^^
...i didn't go for choir practice. why?
> 'coz i don't like the idea of going back to school on holidays. i am against the whole idea.
> i'm busy entertaining guests, who happens to be my relatives. can't i have quality time with my relatives? i know this isn't a valid reason for you choir leaders and teacher in charge, but, i think my family comes first before anything else 'coz i wouldn't be in school without them, wouldn't i? *rhetorical question*
> like i said, i'm a family-oriented person. i want to spend time with them while i can, and while they're still alive, 'coz i can't spend time with them when they're dead *touches wood*. yeah, i wouldn't much use to a dead person, wouldn't i? *another rhetorical question*
ok. so i didn't come to lenten vigil too. i wasn't able to come 'coz i wasn't feeling well, i was in jurong...and i didn't take an afternoon nap.
...why was i in jurong?...i was supposed to take something there, i can't recall what was it, and well, it so happens that...i forgot what happens next, i have a bad sense of memory...
ok. now to do what i was here for.
i'm gonna do what xin ying did, 'coz i can't keep in my feelings any longer.
...and i have to admit, i'm slightly emo xD (it doesn't show?...this proves i'm good at faking that i'm not. xP)
joanna: ....*sigh* do you really wanna know? if you don't want to get hurt, close this window.
i've got to admit.you can be quite annoying sometimes, i just don't dare say it. i don't mean to backstab and such, though...i'm still jealous that you were able to change to another school, and i'm quite annoyed about the reason why you changed school...but i don't mean to be selfish and stuff...which is probably the reason i let it go. i don't call much anymore, and sometimes when you call me, you always hear me like i'm in a hurry. times have changed, i don't have much time anymore, which leads my life into an imminent disaster. x.x
...and besides, i've learned the the school's reputation is nothing without its students. so, i'm trying to clear up the school's name on academics: by topping the school's o-levels with a whooping score...a score high enough to let me enter victoria junior college. i know it's impossible, but hey, flying was thought impossible until airplanes were introduced. ^^
...yeah, but it still something too much. :P
...but, this doesn't mean that i hate you. i still like you, 'coz you're still someone i can relate to...and you're someone that is too good to lose. may your relationship with hamza won't be a flop. ^^
amanda:...a lot has changed from the past three years, no?...i remember you saying that you are straight-forward person, so i'm gonna be straight-forward to you too.
you used to be that person who i can hang out with. i used to think of you as very cool and stuff, 'coz, well, i don't remember. i've always thought of you as a good leader before, but, as i've said, things have changed.
...you became more childish, no offense...it's as if you've grown backwards or something. you want things done your way, like that chemistry test mrs koh gave us recently, remember? i remember you saying that if you fail the test, you're gonna blame it on mrs koh. i know you were joking on that part, but what if people take it for granted? i say if the teacher is lousy, i'd do my own work instead, or you could go for tuition. ain't that a simple solution? you can't blame a teacher for teaching that way, 'coz that's her technique. if you don't like it, you could tell her about what you don't like about the way she/he teaches. it won't be solved unless someone does something, right?
...you have also become more selfish, and more of a spoiled brat. yes, you've told me last year that you are quite spoiled, and i told you that you weren't like that. maybe i was wrong. maybe i haven't seen your real side yet.
...you used to be...well...quite approachable. you used to be someone i could talk to...you used to be someone who goes in the same bus as me and talk about a lot of stuff. maybe i was too boring for you, i wouldn't mind...maybe i was too arrogant and cynical, or maybe i still am, i'm trying to improve on it...and you used to say vulgarities not so often. now it seems like vulgarities are part of your vocabulary, which is not a good image for a rite-awardee like you. can you please cut down on them? but this is merely a suggestion, i'm not forcing you to do anything, kapeesh?
...and ever since you went really serious about the whole "les" thing, you went really crazy, as in annoying-type crazy...you became even more sick-minded. you go emo when trina ignores you. i want the old amanda back, but i can't force people to do my bidding, can i?
(btw, i am being outcasted, and you don't need to apologize. it's too late, and i'm outcasting myself from the whole gang. i know the clique is falling apart, and, well, i think it's too late to fix it, not that i'm being a pessimist)
michael: i know you like corrinne (or however you spell it)...i don't like her that much, but don't let my thoughts get in the way of your feelings. if you really like her, then fine, as long as you're happy. if others don't like you being together, then heck care what they think. what matters most is what you feel...but, please do not forget your friends, 'coz corrinne isn't the only person in the world. and if she rejects you, don't mope around and go emo. respect her decision. she isn't the only girl in the world. probably now ain't the time for you to have a girlfriend, so don't rush. and besides, there are more girls in the world that you haven't met, and you can't be sure corrinne's the one for you...but that doesn't mean that you go date every single girl on the planet, 'coz that is extremely weird.
...btw, i like your decision to turn over a new leaf. i wanted to turn over a new leaf too, but my own self kept stopping me from doing so. but i am trying, though. ^^
xin ying: ...yes i did say things do change, and i'm not the only one seeing the changes.
...yes, you did become a bit weird, but not weird to the point of being crazy...you weren't so emo as before, and i like it. ^^
amanda did say once the you don't "click" anymore, that you were being annoying. but i don't think that you are annoying...seriously. i am not being biased, 'coz that would mean that i am lying, which i don't plan to do right now.
...a lot of things did change for the past three years that i have been here.
...to the whole lot that has been reading this: i have noticed that i've changed a lot too. i've made new friends this year, i have seen things from a different perspective, a lot has seiously changed. but that doesn't mean i like everything that has changed from my past personality. it seems like i have been more arrogant (i've said it before and i'll say it again)...i have been trying to humble myself. it's just me who's been stubborn.
...well.. i can't think of anything else to say. i'm not hiding any more stuff in the head.
man, ranting stuff is fun ^^
see ya,
mariel ^^
Thursday, February 21, 2008
whatever.
deductive reasoning? yeah right, like i have that.
website completion status: 06.0% (really lazy, eh?)
lets' cut to the chase, shall we?
linggo: i got the case wrapped up. (what case? check the choir blog tagboard.)...i kinda know who the notorious tagger(s) is(are), although i might not be too sure on that. i won't tell who that person(s) is(are), 'coz i might get myself under embarrassment if i got it wrong. anyway, how did i know?
firstly, the way he tagged. he went on rambling about soccer and stuff and then i knew it was a guy. of course there are girls who like soccer, but i don't think they'd be awful enough to spam that tagboard full of nonsense.
secondly, the time span between his tags. it seems that said person has associates, by the style of his wording and insults, it surely can't be from the same person. or can it?
thirdly, i got a slight hint of who they were the next day. don't ask me why. 'coz i'm bad at explaining.
...but of course, i'm not a detective/sleuth. i told you, these are just guesses. these speculations might be wrong...i wouldn't know. besides, i feel that the tagger ain't willing to budge. i'll have to wait for this one.
lunes: did this crystallization practical for chem. i like chem practicals. they're awfully awesome. ^^ english remedial was, well, i dunno how to explain. but well, teacher said there was an improvement on our behavior. i don't see much difference.
martes: had a very difficult math homework...went to farmart with the old folks, and had fun with my job as "ambush photographer"...too bad i deleted some of my photos, besides the fact that some of them were blurry, but some were priceless in the sense of funny.
miyerkoles: well, mrs wee suggested that my english group should have made a longer storyline for our project, so we had to redo it. amath was quite a blur, i was busy thinking of my projects (more on that soon)...and did not concentrate on the lesson, but i was able to do some of the questions...just by looking at the examples. but the book still lacks examples. i'm gonna ask my parents to buy me that other amath book.
also, mdm wong thought of asraf as a very nice pupil. IT'S ALL BUT A FALSE FACADE. that guy's a complete idiot. he doesn't respect others, so why will i give him respect?
...and besides, he's a whinny spoiled brat.
....but that doesn't prove that i'm not either.
(translation: c'mon. you haven't seen the other side of me yet.)
social studies debate was most fun. except asraf being a nuisance (soo damn typical. i must consider barging into the principal's office and tell her to expel asraf. if only i had the nerve to do so.), it was...well, nice. aside from the fact that our group's debate was an epic fail. xD
i'll be expecting another epic fail in my maths test. i'll bet 1 cent on that.
on the part of the take2 of the el project, well, i...can't describe it. there were a lot of errors here and there, but hey, we ain't perfect, and at least we didn't take the story from a website a long time ago and reuse it again. on this, you'd better ask anh, 'coz i told her about said topic. (asraf is still a nuisance, and he sucks, and has a mentality on a 1-year-old. i wonder why he's still in express. he failed science last year, as far as i know.)
i had the funnest bio lesson ever. for this ask xy, suhartini, sharmila, anh...we were laughing until my side ached. (crap)
>class website.
>learn to do animations out of flash, and then do some work.
>my alternative math workbook.
>homework, like usual.
now my mind's blank. like empty space.
see ya,
mariel
(p.s.: can you believe this post's in technicolor? i mean, colorful? i'm bored, so i had to do so...and can you believe how many i times i've edited this post? that's how weird i am.)
website completion status: 06.0% (really lazy, eh?)
lets' cut to the chase, shall we?
>>THE NOT SO DISTANT PAST<<
(dang, i've got to get organizer-thingys for this thing. i'm tired of typing.)linggo: i got the case wrapped up. (what case? check the choir blog tagboard.)...i kinda know who the notorious tagger(s) is(are), although i might not be too sure on that. i won't tell who that person(s) is(are), 'coz i might get myself under embarrassment if i got it wrong. anyway, how did i know?
firstly, the way he tagged. he went on rambling about soccer and stuff and then i knew it was a guy. of course there are girls who like soccer, but i don't think they'd be awful enough to spam that tagboard full of nonsense.
secondly, the time span between his tags. it seems that said person has associates, by the style of his wording and insults, it surely can't be from the same person. or can it?
thirdly, i got a slight hint of who they were the next day. don't ask me why. 'coz i'm bad at explaining.
...but of course, i'm not a detective/sleuth. i told you, these are just guesses. these speculations might be wrong...i wouldn't know. besides, i feel that the tagger ain't willing to budge. i'll have to wait for this one.
lunes: did this crystallization practical for chem. i like chem practicals. they're awfully awesome. ^^ english remedial was, well, i dunno how to explain. but well, teacher said there was an improvement on our behavior. i don't see much difference.
martes: had a very difficult math homework...went to farmart with the old folks, and had fun with my job as "ambush photographer"...too bad i deleted some of my photos, besides the fact that some of them were blurry, but some were priceless in the sense of funny.
miyerkoles: well, mrs wee suggested that my english group should have made a longer storyline for our project, so we had to redo it. amath was quite a blur, i was busy thinking of my projects (more on that soon)...and did not concentrate on the lesson, but i was able to do some of the questions...just by looking at the examples. but the book still lacks examples. i'm gonna ask my parents to buy me that other amath book.
also, mdm wong thought of asraf as a very nice pupil. IT'S ALL BUT A FALSE FACADE. that guy's a complete idiot. he doesn't respect others, so why will i give him respect?
...and besides, he's a whinny spoiled brat.
....but that doesn't prove that i'm not either.
>>THE PRESENT TENSE<<
"c'mon. you ain't seen half of me yet."(translation: c'mon. you haven't seen the other side of me yet.)
social studies debate was most fun. except asraf being a nuisance (soo damn typical. i must consider barging into the principal's office and tell her to expel asraf. if only i had the nerve to do so.), it was...well, nice. aside from the fact that our group's debate was an epic fail. xD
i'll be expecting another epic fail in my maths test. i'll bet 1 cent on that.
on the part of the take2 of the el project, well, i...can't describe it. there were a lot of errors here and there, but hey, we ain't perfect, and at least we didn't take the story from a website a long time ago and reuse it again. on this, you'd better ask anh, 'coz i told her about said topic. (asraf is still a nuisance, and he sucks, and has a mentality on a 1-year-old. i wonder why he's still in express. he failed science last year, as far as i know.)
i had the funnest bio lesson ever. for this ask xy, suhartini, sharmila, anh...we were laughing until my side ached. (crap)
>>FUTURE PROJECTS<<
>that...petition, if anyone is still in favour, please, tell me, or i'll cancel it.>class website.
>learn to do animations out of flash, and then do some work.
>my alternative math workbook.
>homework, like usual.
>>THE LAST WORDS<<
meh. nothing here except...
"yum."
"yum."
now my mind's blank. like empty space.
see ya,
mariel
(p.s.: can you believe this post's in technicolor? i mean, colorful? i'm bored, so i had to do so...and can you believe how many i times i've edited this post? that's how weird i am.)
Sunday, February 17, 2008
dingdondangdong...dingdingdingdong
ouch. that's gonna hurt in the morning.
class website completion status: 6.0% (added one page. nothing much, though.)
i've got a lot to do, so don't expect a very long post.
first of all, x-country. was very glad to see joanna, although to me it seems weird that she cut her fringe...well, that's her decision anyway. the last time i had a fringe was last year. and it kept bugging me. >.<
well, we rode the same bus (21) home, i had to alight earlier, 'coz my stop's nearer (common sense.)...and we kinda stumbled on one topic while we waited for the bus...or so i remember. i dun dare say it here. my rep is at stake (steak, lolz.)...
now, what am i doing?
busy doing research work...for a debate. i'm wasting time here.
also browsing on deviantart, what else do i have to do?
oh yeah, class webbie. too bad i had to do all the work, 'coz i didn't ask for help. so now i'm asking: who knows css?
gotta go.
see ya,
mariel
class website completion status: 6.0% (added one page. nothing much, though.)
i've got a lot to do, so don't expect a very long post.
first of all, x-country. was very glad to see joanna, although to me it seems weird that she cut her fringe...well, that's her decision anyway. the last time i had a fringe was last year. and it kept bugging me. >.<
well, we rode the same bus (21) home, i had to alight earlier, 'coz my stop's nearer (common sense.)...and we kinda stumbled on one topic while we waited for the bus...or so i remember. i dun dare say it here. my rep is at stake (steak, lolz.)...
now, what am i doing?
busy doing research work...for a debate. i'm wasting time here.
also browsing on deviantart, what else do i have to do?
oh yeah, class webbie. too bad i had to do all the work, 'coz i didn't ask for help. so now i'm asking: who knows css?
gotta go.
see ya,
mariel
Thursday, February 14, 2008
...slinks away...
i'd rather be somewhere far away...so far that no one can hear me scream...'coz i wanna get out of here 'coz it only gives me more pain...
website completion status: still down at 05.0%. how lazy am i?
...for those who think i'm emo-ing again, well, probably i am. but usually it's on a temporary basis...it goes on and off without me even knowing it. *moves off to a dark corner*
...so i've heard that jo and hamza's relationship has been going well, even if joanna told me one time last year after she broke up with mich (it was more like 5 months after that incident) that she didn't wanna be associated with any boy whosoever...seems like times have changed. breaking resolutions are our trend already. how come i didn't hear of it?
...i must be out of my mind, mustn't i?
okay, enough of this, it's only making my day worse.
website completion status: still down at 05.0%. how lazy am i?
...for those who think i'm emo-ing again, well, probably i am. but usually it's on a temporary basis...it goes on and off without me even knowing it. *moves off to a dark corner*
...so i've heard that jo and hamza's relationship has been going well, even if joanna told me one time last year after she broke up with mich (it was more like 5 months after that incident) that she didn't wanna be associated with any boy whosoever...seems like times have changed. breaking resolutions are our trend already. how come i didn't hear of it?
...i must be out of my mind, mustn't i?
okay, enough of this, it's only making my day worse.
>>THE NOT SO DISTANT PAST<<
*insert omitted text here*monday: meh. started on enzymes, which was so boring. took a nap at chem class without mrs koh noticing. how shameful, especially for someone who is a chem rep. perhaps i need to work on my attitude. and get some more sleep, 'coz i really need it...
tuesday: well, i was really feeling kinda sick that day...but i didn't care. i also was lucky enough to catch an early bus. ^^ the rest that happened on this day was nothing of importance, except amanda got sabotaged by mrs koh. l.o.l.s...also got to see esther in choir. long time no see, esther ^^...after choir there was this meeting-thingy for choir leaders. i didn't want to stand there in envy so i walked off. i don't wanna care anymore.
wednesday: well...found out almost everyone i knew got hooked, except for a few (which includes yours truly)...i mean, seriously...you might think it's silly of me to refuse to have a bf, but, as i always say, it ain't my time yet. although i'm not patient on a lot of things, i can be quite patient on this matter. i don't like rushing, especially for exams. it ain't worth it.
tuesday: well, i was really feeling kinda sick that day...but i didn't care. i also was lucky enough to catch an early bus. ^^ the rest that happened on this day was nothing of importance, except amanda got sabotaged by mrs koh. l.o.l.s...also got to see esther in choir. long time no see, esther ^^...after choir there was this meeting-thingy for choir leaders. i didn't want to stand there in envy so i walked off. i don't wanna care anymore.
wednesday: well...found out almost everyone i knew got hooked, except for a few (which includes yours truly)...i mean, seriously...you might think it's silly of me to refuse to have a bf, but, as i always say, it ain't my time yet. although i'm not patient on a lot of things, i can be quite patient on this matter. i don't like rushing, especially for exams. it ain't worth it.
>>THE PRESENT TENSE<<
"darn. how could i be so dumb?"
yups. my head is really deteriorating at a fast rate.
my maths (a and e) are complete failures. my bio was also quite a disappointment, and my chem is also pretty much disheartening. for sure i'm gonna get beaten up in physics.
...and that's how i learnt that looks can indeed be deceiving in a hard way.
how now, brown cow?
...i don't think i can even make an a1.
it's my arrogance that made me like this. i shouldn't have been too overconfident.
...and it's all gonna change, hopefully.
yups. my head is really deteriorating at a fast rate.
my maths (a and e) are complete failures. my bio was also quite a disappointment, and my chem is also pretty much disheartening. for sure i'm gonna get beaten up in physics.
...and that's how i learnt that looks can indeed be deceiving in a hard way.
how now, brown cow?
...i don't think i can even make an a1.
it's my arrogance that made me like this. i shouldn't have been too overconfident.
...and it's all gonna change, hopefully.
>>FUTURE PROJECTS<<
...meh. not sure.
first of all, i'm gonna cut the slack like what i'm doing right now and hit the books. also, i'll try to get as much sleep as possible. i already look like a panda, and it could only get worse.
...also, i'm gonna try to finish the class site a.s.a.p. ...i'm pretty serious about it although it seems like no one ever takes me seriously. weird? naaaaaah.
...also, i'll try to convince myself to be more decisive, especially when i'm thinking of running for philippine president. *dang. did i just say that? lol, i did.* although it's only a thought, no one can be so sure about the future.
first of all, i'm gonna cut the slack like what i'm doing right now and hit the books. also, i'll try to get as much sleep as possible. i already look like a panda, and it could only get worse.
...also, i'm gonna try to finish the class site a.s.a.p. ...i'm pretty serious about it although it seems like no one ever takes me seriously. weird? naaaaaah.
...also, i'll try to convince myself to be more decisive, especially when i'm thinking of running for philippine president. *dang. did i just say that? lol, i did.* although it's only a thought, no one can be so sure about the future.
>>...THE LAST WORDS...<<
...before i bid you people adieu, i would like to say the following:
>that you no need to worry if i get hurt, 'coz i've let go anyway...so you can just go on with the relationship, 'coz i've let go of it by posting this. ^^
>that you can talk to the hand 'coz i just want to hear silence, thank you very much.
>that you can go move into the landfill, don't mind me, i'm just a bystander.
>...that i need to be alone when i'm emo-ing, so, please stay away by a 30-mile radius, or at least be far away as possible. i don't wanna rant, 'coz i know you won't like it either.
>that i absolutely don't mind being outcasted anymore. haven't i told that a thousand times? although it kinda hurts. v.v
>that i really wanna get out of this place (bigger scale please. i like my house, you know.). this place sucks.
..and now i must bid you guys a fond farewell. happy valentines day!
see ya,
mariel
(to readers: sorry for dumping this huge load of dump on you. i really need someone to confide to, an my diary's full. i need a new one...and i don't mean that i seek attention. i try not to. and the last words? try to guess if i'm referring to you. you might never know. *winks*)
>that you no need to worry if i get hurt, 'coz i've let go anyway...so you can just go on with the relationship, 'coz i've let go of it by posting this. ^^
>that you can talk to the hand 'coz i just want to hear silence, thank you very much.
>that you can go move into the landfill, don't mind me, i'm just a bystander.
>...that i need to be alone when i'm emo-ing, so, please stay away by a 30-mile radius, or at least be far away as possible. i don't wanna rant, 'coz i know you won't like it either.
>that i absolutely don't mind being outcasted anymore. haven't i told that a thousand times? although it kinda hurts. v.v
>that i really wanna get out of this place (bigger scale please. i like my house, you know.). this place sucks.
..and now i must bid you guys a fond farewell. happy valentines day!
see ya,
mariel
(to readers: sorry for dumping this huge load of dump on you. i really need someone to confide to, an my diary's full. i need a new one...and i don't mean that i seek attention. i try not to. and the last words? try to guess if i'm referring to you. you might never know. *winks*)
Friday, February 08, 2008
...he was a boy, she was a girl...//
website completion status: 05.0%...too lazy to update.
...just realized i'm hangin' out in the landfill. must escape pretty soon. don't plan to get hooked...well i used to, but it didn't worked out, the guy went for another girl, and it still kinda hurts. which leaves in the status of "don't wanna get help from someone, don't want to trust anybody and don't want to get hooked." don't reprimand me if i'm giving hints. i just don't care anymore.
...just realized i'm hangin' out in the landfill. must escape pretty soon. don't plan to get hooked...well i used to, but it didn't worked out, the guy went for another girl, and it still kinda hurts. which leaves in the status of "don't wanna get help from someone, don't want to trust anybody and don't want to get hooked." don't reprimand me if i'm giving hints. i just don't care anymore.
>>THE NOT SO DISTANT PAST<<
montag: school. it was pretty much disappointing for me. my english was a downright low. okay, i can express myself in words, but seriously, i don't do comprehension. i can comprehend, thank you very much, i understand english, and i'd rather learn than be tested. oh, yeah, i don't really liked how my social studies test went out.
dienstag: erm...i dunno what happened on this day, 'cept for the fact mr ievan lew called us "moronic" (ok, that wasn't exactly what he said but of course, you know what is synonymous with this.)...lolz, that was darn offending, since, naturlich, he's talking to an express class. said situation was due to nobody (actually, only hoang raised his) raised their hand for something he was asking (who got this question correct?)...of course, we don't admit mistakes, and most of the books weren't checked, so you can't blame us much xD
mittwoch: made to sit under the hot sun before dismissal. mdm liza hasn't given me my emath results yet, but was kinda disappointed with my amaths results. i dunno anything about diagonals, since i'm such a 'tard at this sense, and some careless mistakes...but i liked how i spent the day, btw. lazed off, i mean. oh yeah, there was this guy, well, i'm not really sure what happened to him but he was, well, the time i saw him, he was lying in a stretcher, and i guess you know what happens next (clue: ambulances???)...dunno what happened but womething tells me that some discipline teacher talking to two guys holding a disciplinary slip is related to this. don't ask me why.
dienstag: erm...i dunno what happened on this day, 'cept for the fact mr ievan lew called us "moronic" (ok, that wasn't exactly what he said but of course, you know what is synonymous with this.)...lolz, that was darn offending, since, naturlich, he's talking to an express class. said situation was due to nobody (actually, only hoang raised his) raised their hand for something he was asking (who got this question correct?)...of course, we don't admit mistakes, and most of the books weren't checked, so you can't blame us much xD
mittwoch: made to sit under the hot sun before dismissal. mdm liza hasn't given me my emath results yet, but was kinda disappointed with my amaths results. i dunno anything about diagonals, since i'm such a 'tard at this sense, and some careless mistakes...but i liked how i spent the day, btw. lazed off, i mean. oh yeah, there was this guy, well, i'm not really sure what happened to him but he was, well, the time i saw him, he was lying in a stretcher, and i guess you know what happens next (clue: ambulances???)...dunno what happened but womething tells me that some discipline teacher talking to two guys holding a disciplinary slip is related to this. don't ask me why.
donnerstag: watched american idol...loved the flashbacks. can't forget the audition of renaldo lapuz...simply unforgettable. search the name on youtube, you'll indeed find the video itself and a lot of remixes of his audition song. it's still stuck in my head.
>>PRESENT TENSE<<
watched two movies today...and my arm got a slight burn after i was careless in cooking besuto...and got punched by my bro for his flighty temper. of course, being sensible, i didn't punch back, but my anger was rising to a certain extent.
...gotta go, i got chores to do.
...gotta go, i got chores to do.
Sunday, February 03, 2008
dangit.
class website making progress- 05.0%.
but i got stuff for it anyway. i only need a good layout. >.<
>>what have i been up to?<<...well, i'm currently blogging, and editing the website at the same time...this is indeed, going to be big.
THURSDAY: i went for a dental checkup last thursday. darn it, i didn't know it was that bad. i was to undergo tooth filling, extraction and something like tooth removal. there was a tooth that...well...didn't show up, and if it has to be removed, well, i have to go for an operation under local/general anesthesia. i opted for the local one...i don't want to put my life on the line. i'd rather be traumatized about seeing everything in action rather than getting my chances being dead. it ain't my time yet. by the way, undergoing for an x-ray is weird. i got a slight headache after the second one, but perhaps it was on something else.
FRIDAY: amath test was kinda hard, except for the division part. i love division in the algebraic sense. don't like whole number division that they taught me in primary school. dang that was hard. bio was kinda of a breeze, not meaning to brag or anything, at least i don't have to do memorization. just have to know the process, and that's it. although i got something wrong at the last question. *slaps head*
SATURDAY: i played with my bro's/my psp...and i left the fried rice for the fellowship night last night, so i had to buy cake. but it was wasted since no one seemed to be in the mood for cake anyway. played with candle wax with amanda yesterday...it was kinda fun, although i probably couldn't keep up with the resolution i said last night. school's just so darn pre-occupying, you won't have time for yourself, or worse, for Him (i mean God...people nowadays.)...even time management won't work. i mean, what would you use algebra and matrices for? i see no connection with real life. *winks*...i'm just a teen anyway.
TODAY: woke up at 8...ate a burger for breakfast. it was kinda burnt, 'coz i was distracted by a newspaper article when i was supposed to be looking after the patties. but it was kinda nice anyway. folded clothes. took a bath. do i have to go into detail here?
>>what am i planning to do?<<
but i got stuff for it anyway. i only need a good layout. >.<
>>what have i been up to?<<
THURSDAY: i went for a dental checkup last thursday. darn it, i didn't know it was that bad. i was to undergo tooth filling, extraction and something like tooth removal. there was a tooth that...well...didn't show up, and if it has to be removed, well, i have to go for an operation under local/general anesthesia. i opted for the local one...i don't want to put my life on the line. i'd rather be traumatized about seeing everything in action rather than getting my chances being dead. it ain't my time yet. by the way, undergoing for an x-ray is weird. i got a slight headache after the second one, but perhaps it was on something else.
FRIDAY: amath test was kinda hard, except for the division part. i love division in the algebraic sense. don't like whole number division that they taught me in primary school. dang that was hard. bio was kinda of a breeze, not meaning to brag or anything, at least i don't have to do memorization. just have to know the process, and that's it. although i got something wrong at the last question. *slaps head*
SATURDAY: i played with my bro's/my psp...and i left the fried rice for the fellowship night last night, so i had to buy cake. but it was wasted since no one seemed to be in the mood for cake anyway. played with candle wax with amanda yesterday...it was kinda fun, although i probably couldn't keep up with the resolution i said last night. school's just so darn pre-occupying, you won't have time for yourself, or worse, for Him (i mean God...people nowadays.)...even time management won't work. i mean, what would you use algebra and matrices for? i see no connection with real life. *winks*...i'm just a teen anyway.
TODAY: woke up at 8...ate a burger for breakfast. it was kinda burnt, 'coz i was distracted by a newspaper article when i was supposed to be looking after the patties. but it was kinda nice anyway. folded clothes. took a bath. do i have to go into detail here?
>>what am i planning to do?<<
+finish a bit on the class website. i'm serious on finishing it.
+do homework. duh.
+do something on a holiday i don't really celebrate. (CNY, folks. if my grandmother on my mother's side was still alive, i'd be wearing red and getting ang pow. ^^ ...and eating that thing some chinoys [chinese filipinos] call tikoy.)
+study for those upcoming tests *gets hit by stacks of paper [hp: -100]*
...and that's all folks!
see ya
(inspired by: the sound of the falling rain by mother nature ^^)
+do homework. duh.
+do something on a holiday i don't really celebrate. (CNY, folks. if my grandmother on my mother's side was still alive, i'd be wearing red and getting ang pow. ^^ ...and eating that thing some chinoys [chinese filipinos] call tikoy.)
+study for those upcoming tests *gets hit by stacks of paper [hp: -100]*
...and that's all folks!
see ya
(inspired by: the sound of the falling rain by mother nature ^^)
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