...he was a boy, she was a girl...//

website completion status: 05.0%...too lazy to update.

...just realized i'm hangin' out in the landfill. must escape pretty soon. don't plan to get hooked...well i used to, but it didn't worked out, the guy went for another girl, and it still kinda hurts. which leaves in the status of "don't wanna get help from someone, don't want to trust anybody and don't want to get hooked." don't reprimand me if i'm giving hints. i just don't care anymore.

>>THE NOT SO DISTANT PAST<<

montag: school. it was pretty much disappointing for me. my english was a downright low. okay, i can express myself in words, but seriously, i don't do comprehension. i can comprehend, thank you very much, i understand english, and i'd rather learn than be tested. oh, yeah, i don't really liked how my social studies test went out.

dienstag: erm...i dunno what happened on this day, 'cept for the fact mr ievan lew called us "moronic" (ok, that wasn't exactly what he said but of course, you know what is synonymous with this.)...lolz, that was darn offending, since, naturlich, he's talking to an express class. said situation was due to nobody (actually, only hoang raised his) raised their hand for something he was asking (who got this question correct?)...of course, we don't admit mistakes, and most of the books weren't checked, so you can't blame us much xD

mittwoch: made to sit under the hot sun before dismissal. mdm liza hasn't given me my emath results yet, but was kinda disappointed with my amaths results. i dunno anything about diagonals, since i'm such a 'tard at this sense, and some careless mistakes...but i liked how i spent the day, btw. lazed off, i mean. oh yeah, there was this guy, well, i'm not really sure what happened to him but he was, well, the time i saw him, he was lying in a stretcher, and i guess you know what happens next (clue: ambulances???)...dunno what happened but womething tells me that some discipline teacher talking to two guys holding a disciplinary slip is related to this. don't ask me why.

donnerstag: watched american idol...loved the flashbacks. can't forget the audition of renaldo lapuz...simply unforgettable. search the name on youtube, you'll indeed find the video itself and a lot of remixes of his audition song. it's still stuck in my head.

>>PRESENT TENSE<<

watched two movies today...and my arm got a slight burn after i was careless in cooking besuto...and got punched by my bro for his flighty temper. of course, being sensible, i didn't punch back, but my anger was rising to a certain extent.

...gotta go, i got chores to do.

dangit.

class website making progress- 05.0%.
but i got stuff for it anyway. i only need a good layout. >.<

>>what have i been up to?<<

...well, i'm currently blogging, and editing the website at the same time...this is indeed, going to be big.

THURSDAY: i went for a dental checkup last thursday. darn it, i didn't know it was that bad. i was to undergo tooth filling, extraction and something like tooth removal. there was a tooth that...well...didn't show up, and if it has to be removed, well, i have to go for an operation under local/general anesthesia. i opted for the local one...i don't want to put my life on the line. i'd rather be traumatized about seeing everything in action rather than getting my chances being dead. it ain't my time yet. by the way, undergoing for an x-ray is weird. i got a slight headache after the second one, but perhaps it was on something else.

FRIDAY: amath test was kinda hard, except for the division part. i love division in the algebraic sense. don't like whole number division that they taught me in primary school. dang that was hard. bio was kinda of a breeze, not meaning to brag or anything, at least i don't have to do memorization. just have to know the process, and that's it. although i got something wrong at the last question. *slaps head*

SATURDAY: i played with my bro's/my psp...and i left the fried rice for the fellowship night last night, so i had to buy cake. but it was wasted since no one seemed to be in the mood for cake anyway. played with candle wax with amanda yesterday...it was kinda fun, although i probably couldn't keep up with the resolution i said last night. school's just so darn pre-occupying, you won't have time for yourself, or worse, for Him (i mean God...people nowadays.)...even time management won't work. i mean, what would you use algebra and matrices for? i see no connection with real life. *winks*...i'm just a teen anyway.

TODAY: woke up at 8...ate a burger for breakfast. it was kinda burnt, 'coz i was distracted by a newspaper article when i was supposed to be looking after the patties. but it was kinda nice anyway. folded clothes. took a bath. do i have to go into detail here?

>>what am i planning to do?<<

+finish a bit on the class website. i'm serious on finishing it.
+do homework. duh.
+do something on a holiday i don't really celebrate. (CNY, folks. if my grandmother on my mother's side was still alive, i'd be wearing red and getting ang pow. ^^ ...and eating that thing some chinoys [chinese filipinos] call tikoy.)
+study for those upcoming tests *gets hit by stacks of paper [hp: -100]*

...and that's all folks!

see ya

(inspired by: the sound of the falling rain by mother nature ^^)

...nyuh...//

for once i want the world to just shut up. i want them to leave earth and let me be alone. i want people to just get out of my way.

sometimes i'm just really frustrated on how people act. but i don't want a perfect world (note:utopia)...i never wanted anything like that.

some people just think that they're smarter than anyone else. i know some people are smart, but if i were smart, i'd keep it low key. ok, we know you're smart, but there is absolutely no need to show off. so shut that little trap of yours. i know some people are smarter than me in some things, but as i said, no need to show off.

some people think that they're perfect so they go off criticizing people. but they're not perfect. there is no such thing as perfect in this world. even if they have them "attractive qualities" doesn't mean they're perfect. the only person i know that is perfect is God...and even though we're imperfect, he still loves us, and accept us for who we are...and try to lead us back to the good side, eventually. not like other people who are such snobs who think they're perfect and go tell others off. i won't shoot, ok?

some people are so damn self-centered, that they think everything must be focused on them. i dunno why this is so, when they get the most attention all the time.

who am i ranting about? myself. why? i am such a show-offy, snobbish, self-centered jerk. that's right. a jerk. i know you'll ask, why do i look at myself that way? 'coz that's who i really am.

and yeah, other people are like that too, they just don't dare admit it. yeah, as i said in my previous post, you might think that i am all that, but i'm not. i've got emotions too, which is both a blessing and a burden. >.< (really sorry for dumping this to the readers, seriously.) i know some people are outcasting me, but, to the people who i've dumped on this matter, no need to stand up for me. i can do this on my own. i positively can. i don't need that guy anymore. like i'm gonna care if whatever happens to him. really. i've got other people to hang out with. forgive and forget, even if it means i have to forget that person ever existed.

yeah, i know those people have their own world, and thereby leaving me out of the matter, but i don't really care if they do. i've got my own matters to think about. i still have a whole life ahead of me, and i won't waste my time moping around just 'coz i got outcasted. not anymore.

i know the class is clique-ish. but that doesn't mean that going around without a clique makes you a loser. it's not true. i know someone who thought so, but living by that ideal makes you too dependent on your friends, and in some instances, makes you more of a loser. a definite low.

i like my own company for this time only, thanks. i have a life too, ya know.

oh yeah, did you hear of the guy who did not have a life? he said he did have one, and he bought it off the convenience store, but i think it's not working for him.

so really sorry for dumping the crap on the readers. and to those who got hit by my rants, there's a filipino saying, which goes like this:
"batu-bato sa langit, ang matamaan, ay 'wag magalit"
which means if you ever got affected if someone talks about you in a subtle way (like this rant), don't ever get angry. ^^

see ya,
mariel

(this post has been inspired by:
simple plan - shut up
)

snuck in.

heh...sneaked in to post something.

whatever others say about me being perfect, ain't true.
i was never perfect. never.
you can scold me anything you want. you can tell me to shut up. i don't care anymore.even if you have a higher position(electoral, academic or whatever) than me, i don't care, 'coz you're just as whacked as me...we're just showing others a false facade. we've always been.

yeah, i know i'd get angry at you, sometimes i'd just give you the cold shoulder. 'coz that's just how i feel. if i were able to spill everything it would take days to finish.
remember what mdm (ms? mrs? meh.) wong said? "no regrets"...i don't think i couldn't live by it...i've had too many regrets in my life.

to you all, you'd think my life's positively perfect. you'd think i'd make up excuses so that i don't have to go for this meeting and stuff.
WRONG.
i'm waaaaaay busier than you. yeah, it might not mean i'd get the position i was clinching for since last year (it was an electoral one, btw. see previous blogposts.), but somehow, i don't feel like i regretted it. i'd rather have it that way. yeah, i know you're so free. you wanna know what my sched is like? lemme see:
monday-remedial starting next week+housechores+homework
tuesday-choir+remedial+housechores+homework
wednesday-(remedial+choir)+german+housechores+homework
....and it goes on...

yeah, i know you'd be asking, why not ask your parents to make you stop doing housework, hmmm?
'coz i'd rather have learnt something related to housework rather than get married without knowing anything about the house and be useless, 'coz a house reflects that of the person who's doing the housekeeping, wherein mostly in this case, is the wife.

don't try to be arrogant with me. i know you've got a lot of friends, especially in the sec2. they're all supporting you, so don't go emo on me saying "no one cares about me"...i won't be able to comfort you, i'd probably make it worse. i know some of the choir members (especially current sec2s) are rooting for you. i don't mind, as long as you don't abuse your authority. if you do, well, things wouldn't be good.

so who was i ranting about? my next door neighbor. more details? ask me over the phone. it's more private there.

i'm thinking of switching this blog to private. >.<
i'm working on the new class website.
i'm studying for my social studies test.
i'm busy ranting over here.

that song that inspired me to post for no reason:
simple plan-perfect

drownin' at the southeast asian homework sea.

it has been, like days that i haven't blog'd. i've got tons of homework to do...and i haven't even done yet *sobs*

even if i won't get a high (electoral) position this year, whether a chairperson or a neya exco, i don't care. i'm kinda sick of the school politics...so i have to direct my attention to something else.

i've been so stressed lately, if it weren't for some optimists i would be dead right now. seriously. i've got tons of homework to do...plus it seems like wednesday's my most busiest day in a week. just this wednesday i was supposed to go for choir, neya meeting and german class...i dunno what to do anymore...it seems like most people seem to be free on the days i'm not...in fact there are no days that i don't seem to busy. probably after this whole ordeal i'd go home to good ol' ph for vacation...not that i hate it here, it's just that people here seem to go by the principle "all work and no play"...in my opinion that's a definite low.

i'm failin' 'coz i'm too busy. (sorry for flingin' apostrophe's at you guys...even right now.)...i've got myself an organised sched so i won't mess up...but it seems that other unexpected things just suddenly appear in front of my face. i'm sure i won't get cca points, but who can i blame? i'm definitely busy on a wednesday...can't they do it on a monday or a thursday instead? 'coz this is starting to get unreasonable (on my part), 'coz if they want full strength on a choir, they should put practices on when they are most free.

maybe denise did have a point. (never mind what i meant, this was a private convo, folks. dun scold me for being "noisy in choir" (although i was putting my voice low...)...you guys want me to be antisocial, eh?)

i've been feeling outcasted this past few days...joanna, if you're starting to worry, don't ask me about this...but i'd probably spill it to you anyway. (man this post is getting long...tl:dr folks don't continue)...choir's getting different...but i still get out-of-caste (meaning i'm going pariah), the only people that i get to chat with are very unreachable...more elaboration if you call me and i'm willing to talk.

me gots to go...

see ya

uNrEaChAbLe

lol...i wasn't able to do much of any holiday homework...i've been pretty busy the past few weeks.
i am soooo doomed.


it's not my fault, i have to look after my brother...help my parents out in helping with the arrangements for the church on the simbang gabi-thingymajig...and also assist in that christmas-party thingy.
and i think no teacher would believe this or understand this.

...not even a fellow student.

so why give us holiday homework? isn't holidays supposed to be nothing related to school? (this has been a student's point of view. they always heard about the parent's point of view...and the teachers need rest too, you know?) aren't we students supposed to switch off our minds just this once? can't we have that one month without anything related to school? you can't blame us slacking off in school, 'coz we weren't able to do that the whole vacation...we were slumped doing homework.

and another note: some parents actually think their children might be free the whole vacation, so they started making us go to some camp, or something extra-curricular (in my case it would be flooding my room with laundry and asking me to fold it. :P). no matter how much we try to convince them that we have our own lives too...well, it makes things worse.

and now my pc acts like crazy.

i heard that joanna's really set on changing schools (reason: "biology's pretty futureless for me" [joanna, somewhere near end of school term])...i'm sure about soham ("i got accepted in RI!"-soham, translated from sms form)

me? i'm staying. reason?
1)"wala nang slot sa hai sing or sa chij ehhhhh"-my mom [translation: there are no more slots/vacancies at hai sing or at chij...]
2) i'm pretty adjusted to good ol' btss already......
3) i lurrrrrve bio!
4) dun wan the whole changing-school again routine. i've been through that, and seriously, you wouldn't like it....or you will?

5) what? i'd be learning to use flash next year anyway...i don't want to lose that chance...;P

so yah...so goes my list.

and if the whole gang changes school, i'd be lonely and alone, which i wouldn't mind, since i've been actually alone the whole school year.
and ever since that guy came everything started crumbling.
i remember that time when joanna told me she liked him i ask myself what the heck does she see in him? he's not really that physically attractive (nor am i, for that matter)...
or has he been covering up his true self when he's joanna and shows us, joanna's friends, a different side of him?

well, he has been acting strange when jo's around.

but i don't mind if no one believed me...i know nothing.

i'm as dumb as a rock.

see ya

yahaha....

hi! merry christmas!

what have i been up to the past few weeks?

i was out on simbang gabi, a filipino tradition...it's kinda like a novena...we attend mass for 9 days...yup. despite some annoyances, and standing up for the whole duration of the mass 'coz there's a lot of people, it was kinda ok...i was able to meet robert sunga anyway in the process. however i only got a photo...i wasn't able to get an autograph -_-"

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oh yeah, i have been hearing some songs down the net, and i think this one's kinda good (click on the words "this one")

i gotta go...going to watch national treasure ^^

-mariel